What a month.
I have really been working hard this month. And yes, I am celebrating two months sobriety! Here’s a quick catch up: Not only have I finished the Abstinence programme at HAGA (my local alcohol recovery services), but I also took part in and completed the Intuitive Recovery programme.
Finishing the Abstinence programme at HAGA was the end of a long journey for me. If I remember correctly, I first attempted the programme over a year ago. Several false starts later, I got 11 weeks into the 12-week programme…and then ended up in rehab. I was granted a six-week “extension” when I got out and now I can FINALLY say that I’ve completed it! It feels a lot more wonderful than I’m letting on. There should be far more capital letters and exclamations marks, but I’m exhausted and can’t be bothered.
But Happy Graduation to me!
Oh, and I highly recommend Intuitive Recovery to anyone who wants to quit a substance. Unlike AA, Intuitive Recovery is all about feeling empowered to make choices about a substance. Yes, it still advocates abstinence, but for good reason. Basically, it’s all down to how your brain works. I don’t want to spoil it, only recommend it. Especially if AA isn’t your thing.
Meanwhile, I still go to AA even though there are a few philosophical points I don’t agree with. Luckily, no one says you must agree with everything AA says. Besides, I get coins! Behold, my two month coin above, which I collected last week.
Other things that are happening: I am one week into my three week taper off my Mirtazapine, which I’ve been on since May of last year. I suspect it’s responsible for my chronic exhaustion. And if it’s not, then at least I will have eliminated it as the cause. I’m not currently plagued by anxiety, nor are there any anxiety-inducing issues in my life at the moment, so it’s a good time to test the waters of medication-free living.
And yes, I know people will say “you’re not anxious because they’re working!” This might be true. If the persistent anxiety comes back, then I will go back on them again. Right now, I’m more concerned with no longer feeling like the walking dead. I drink a good 6-8 cups of coffee a day and still don’t ever feel awake. Normally, you’d have to scrape me off the ceiling after that much coffee.
I’m also concerned about my waistline and Mirtazapine has definitely added a few pounds to mine. I have slowly started to shed some of them…yes, I’m on a diet. I will become one of those annoying people who Instagrams my food shortly. I’m not following a specific diet per se. The bets way to describe it is a modified slow-carb diet, as described by author Tim Ferris in The 4-Hour Body: An Uncommon Guide to Rapid Fat-loss, Incredible Sex and Becoming Superhuman.
Basically, I eat healthy foods, avoid bread, pasta and rice and no longer consume cheese by the kilogram on a weekly basis. I’m less worried about incredible sex and becoming superhuman. I just want to be able to bend over without grunting.
I am not super-fanatical about this.
Since I started this diet three weeks ago, I’ve lost 3.4kg (or 7.5lbs, which sounds like the bigger accomplishment, doesn’t it?) fairly effortlessly. I will ramp up the exercise shortly but as you can see (read?) it’s been a busy month and there is no need to add to my plate…
But of course I have. One last thing: This week I am launching my passion project. A website I have been thinking about for a good 4+ years. It’s going live on the 30th of March and I am excited and terrified all at once.
There, that’s you brought up to speed on me…in a nutshell. I promise to write more regularly going forward. In fact, I have a few other surprises up my sleeve, so stick around.